Ash Crazy Kristen

Something kind of crazy happened on the way home from school.

Driving down 19th, I stop at a stoplight. All of a sudden, I hear a friendly honk next to me. One of those light taps where someones just trying to get your attention. So I look over, thinking it might be someone I know, and it's a stranger in an old red Mustang. He looks at me making sure he has my attention, then makes a slow motion towards his eyes, then points to the road ahead, then stares straight ahead. This isn't an angry road rage type of motion, it was all very calm, almost solemn. I wasn't sure what to make of this.

But I'm thinking, maybe since I'm really tired, it's possible that I've been swerving or something and he's telling me to watch the road in an extremely kind way. But I'm still really weirded out about it. So I'm focusing really hard on my driving, making sure I'm not swerving or anything, watching the road intently. 2 blocks after he made contact with me, the minivan in front of me screeches on it's brakes and comes to a complete stop for no reason at a green light (this is the 3rd time this has happened this month, I'm not sure what's going on). Because I was focusing so much on the road, I was ready for it, and was able to stop just before hitting the idiotic minivan. The red Mustang stops next to me, then he looks right at me and smiles.

After where the minivan stopped abruptly, there's an extremely small hill that only takes a few seconds to drive over, but you still can't see over it until you reach the top. The red Mustang was slightly ahead of me in the next lane, and he was over the hill for maybe 2 seconds before I reached the top.. but by the time I did, the car was gone. There's no intersections until much further down, so there's no way he could of turned. He just disappeared out of thin air, I have no way to explain how a car could be gone in a 2 second timespan.

Honestly, I'm still really weirded out about the whole thing. But if there's something out there looking out for me, I'm glad. I really believe I would have rammed into that minivan if he didn't tell me to pay more attention. Crazy stuff.

Omg, I just found the funniest article about anime. The Conservatives really know about anime, you guys!

http://blogs4brownback.wordpress.com/2007/09/28/anime-encourages-murder/

LOL. OMG where do I start on how wrong this article is? I'm a Higurashi fan, so yes, I know it's bloody and not meant for children. But COME ON. This article is ridiculous on so many levels!

Best quotes and highlights:
-"Often these are shown late at night to keep them away from children, but even the cartoons shown to children are violent, sexual in nature and make numerous references to magic and demons with no mention of G-d or Jesus. That’s because most Asians do not believe in G-d, but rather in primitive religions such as Buddhism or Shintoism (paganism)."
(OH NOES. THERE'S NOT ENOUGH JESUS IN MY ANIME.)

-Everything about Higurashi causing some 16 year girl to axe her dad. Wow. Teens were murdering their parents far before Higurashi (and nobody even murdered their own parents in Higurashi anyway!), and there is NO evidence to suggest she even watches anime at all. Wow, really great conclusions there! They didn't even get the general plot right, lol. And Rena uses a cleaver, not an axe duuuh!

-"It turns out that there are a group of criminals, known euphemistically as “fansubbers” who routinely pirate hentai (perverted) and ecchi (adult) anime when it airs in Japan. Computer files containing the captured video, known by insiders as raws, appear on illicit websites immediately after broadcast."
(Hahahahahahaha. Fansubbers only fansub hentai??? What the heck are they doing subbing Higurashi then? Last I checked, no hentai there. Oh, and "raws" is totally an insider term, you guys).

-"Apparently she is a huge anime and “say-you” fan. Those signs are similar to the ones you’d find in the hood."
(LOL GANG SIGNALS. The girl in the picture is motioning "3, 2, 1, V (for victory)" how is that a gang sign? lol. And it's not "say-you" it's "seiyuu" you dumb idiots, a seiyuu is a Japanese voice actor!)

-The best quote of all time:
"Check your child’s computer for anime and anime terms, TODAY. Your child could become an otaku, a furry and even a murderer if not a sexual deviant. Don’t let it happen to you!"
(Oh my god, not a furry!!!!! (this is dripping with sarcasm in case it's not obvious) Wtf!! Ok, I found this one offensive. I mean seriously? Otakus and furrys are on the same level of murderers and sexual deviants?! Ridiculous!)

Ok so you guys, I watched some anime today, this article makes me realize how I am so ready to go out axe murdering and raping! Hahahaahahhahahaha.

The only thing that really makes me sad is there's parents who believe this crap. Seriously though? Are conservatives this ridiculous?

Parade tonight was amazing! The walk was a little longer than I expected (an hour and a half kyaaa), but overall it was great fun. Everyone who showed up for the parade looked great! And John and I have never gotten more attention cosplaying XD We were asked to take TONS of pics (and had wayyy too many candid ones taken, I uh really hope the posed ones show up on the internet not the candid ones @.@), we heard shouts of "DOROTHY AND SCARECROW!!" tons of times, and we got so much attention and it was fabulous. ..... eeeeeep. I think cosplay may turn me into an attention whore ^^; lol. Maybe it's because I'm usually pretty quiet and to myself during everyday life, when I dress up it just really makes me happy to be recognized in such a positive way by so many strangers. I'm sure that sounds weird, I can't quite explain. It's like being a movie star for a night is the best way to explain it, lol. Anywho, the parade was almost entirely fun. But the night didn't go without snags (And I don't just mean the damn petticoat under my dress D:). Since it was basically our midterm for the class, and since my professor is very interested in politics and activism, he had us doing some chants for pro-education while we walked. My personal favorite chant was, "Let the dead rise, not our tuition!" I thought that was really cute. lol. But near the beginning of the parade, this one woman in front of us got flamingly PISSED at us for chanting. She screamed numerous threats at us that we couldn't hear clearly, but I did hear her clearly say, "RESPECT THE DEAD!!!!" as if she was going to go murderous on us at any minute for being so "rude." And yes, if you have any doubt, she was obviously a highly uncultured hipster white woman who knew nothing about what the holiday was celebrating. Day of the Dead is a day to celebrate the life and death of your ancestors, loved ones, and those who you admire and respect that have passed on. Not to be all depressed and use the opportunity to have a 2nd funeral march for the ones that have passed on. Honestly. I can't stand people that just assume things about a holiday without learning a single thing about it or the culture behind it. The point is to be loud, to celebrate, to invite your dead family members to party with you for the night. Oi. That woman ticked me off. I thought she was going to throw her candle at us at one point XD But we continued our chanting, louder than ever. We told the professor what she was doing, and he had us chant, "All you hipsters, welcome to the struggle!" which, amazingly, shut her up for the rest of the parade. That was a nice move lol XD Other than the few obviously-uneducated-in-any-culture people, the parade was a fantastic success, I made some new friends in the class, and my confidence has been boosted greatly XD

Not bad for a Monday night!

Bleeeeh. Part of the Bay Bridge broke because the construction planners are idiots and did a rush job with building an entire section of it a few weeks ago, so now they have the entire bridge closed. And it's really screwing with everyone! Ugggh. Since it's closed, everyone (and their mothers) have to take the golden gate bridge to get across the bay. Craaaap. It took me 2 HOURS to get home. Ridiculous! 10 miles an hour all the way home, wtf. I can't even imagine what it's like for people in the east bay that have to go across the richmond bridge after the golden gate. It must take them 5 hours to get home, how horrible. Uggh, such crazy traffic. I even attempted to take every shortcut possible, I thought maybe it would be quicker to go through Sausalito.. but apparently every other driver in Marin thought the exact same thing, and it took 45 minutes just to get through Sausalito. Uggggh. Fix the bridge, peeps, this is annoying! So glad I don't have class tomorrow, but they'd better fix it by monday. What a commuting nightmare.

The good news is, I totally aced my Japanese Theatre midterm today. Yay!

LOL I was just flipping channels, and on a Chinese news program on channel 8 they have a Halloween theme in the background... and there's a big Pikachu plush head on the desk. Whaaaat! That's awesome lol.

Ugh, sometimes the closed-mindedness of people really ruins a good mood. So we were supposed to bring our costume for the Day of the Dead parade to class today, right? I'm really excited about this event, I'll admit it. I love dressing up (lol cosplay), so I've gone all out with this: Got the dress, the hair bows, the basket, a skeleton Toto (they actually sell skeleton dog plush at Target, wtf so morbid, but it works perfectly XD), ruby shoe covers, the whole nine yards.

I understand that none of my classmates are theater majors, and obviously none are cosplayers, so they're not going to be as into dressing up as much as I am. Really, I can understand that. But they could at least try just a little. ONE other person is going to be in full costume. Everyone else is like "Oh I'll just wear this scarf over my regular clothes" or "Oh I'll just wear a hat", or they didn't have any costume idea at all. Not to mention a ton of people have already made lame excuses, and aren't going to go at all. This is an incredible opportunity, we're going to be protesting the budget cuts while being a part of a cultural experience, and there's even a pretty good chance we'll be on tv. Some people in the class got extremely offended at the thought of dressing up and being in a parade, I'm talking dead-set against it. One girl was almost to the point of crying (and then almost became violent) just because the professor told her she should really be a part of it. We're going to be in full white/black face makeup, NOBODY is going to know who we really are, it's going to be during the darkness of night, and there's going to be hundreds of people walking with us. It's the perfect opportunity to get out of your shell a little bit and have some fun. I just don't understand it. Stop trying to be cool and live a little guys, seriously @.@ It won't kill you. Wtf first theater class where I wish everyone was more outgoing, lol.

Uggh I really don't want to study, so why not post?

Have some busy times coming up. No class tomorrow, but I have a bunch of stuff to do for Tuesday, got chores and a blood test on wednesday, have an uber extreme midterm in Japanese Theatre on Thursday, and will probably be seeing a shadow play on Friday night.

Ahh, and for those of you wondering, I won't be going to Yaoi Con this year. Too expensive, gaah. But if anybody goes and they see Syaorancest stuff (I ignore their canon relationship! XD).. buy iiiiit and I'll pay you back with interest XD

As for Halloween.. I really don't have any plans that day, which is kind of sad. But next Sunday is going to be John's grandma's birthday, and then next Monday is going to be Day of the Dead. My Raza prof wants us to dress up like famous dead people in the parade in the mission district, so I decided to be Judy Garland. Mostly my choice was based on the fact that there's like 12 different kinds of Dorothy Halloween costumes out there (and surprisingly only 1 that isn't slutty! What is up with the hoochie-mama Halloween costumes this year that only go half an inch past your ass? Disgusting). But now I'm kind of regretting it because we have to do some sort of performance in character this Tuesday during class, and the prof told me he wants me to sing. Uggh, I can't sing, so my version of "Over the Rainbow" might be breaking the glass in the classroom XD lol. But yeah, I'll be in the parade in a full Dorothy get-up, which should be interesting. The costume isnt flattering on me at all, but ohh well what can you do, haha.

Oh yeah, and I'm definitely going to graduate in December, got my letter in the mail awhile ago ^^ This semester is going by really fast. For my Japanese class, all we have left is the midterm this week, 2 more regular classes, then the final (and then we have to come to class on the last day just for attendance sake, so it doesn't really count). That's just so fast @.@ Can't believe I'll be done with college soon, I still have absolutely no idea what I wanna be when I grow up XD It'll be a nice freedom to be done with school though.

Buuut I won't be graduating unless I pass this midterm, so back to studying for me ;.;

Ok, so.. the Tsubasa epilogue made me feel a little better. I'm a sucker for fanservice, lol. They managed to answer a lot of my questions, but of course I still don't feel completely satisfied. I'll wait till the end of Holic to give my full review, but ehh. Was expecting so much more.

String of bad luck is pretty abundant these days. On Saturday John and I went to a Kabuki event at school. Now, I ordered tickets weeks and weeks ago, and got fantastic seats. It was a sold out show. So we get there, and apparently I didn't print the right e-mail confirmation, but it has the confirmation number on it so I thought that's all that matters. The ticket people not only ignore us after 15 minutes of waiting for them to look up my name on the computer, they LOSE my piece of paper with the confirmation number, and then they say "Oh hey just be understanding because we're sold out, here's 2 tickets in the back row kk?" HELL NO. I blew up at that woman and made a scene. Because of their stupid mistake we have to sit in the back?? Uh, no. So we just said to hell with the tickets and we sat in 2 seats near the front anyway. The event was highly entertaining and informative, but the ticket thing really killed our mood.

Then we decided to try to lift the mood by getting dinner in J-town, and we're at the parking garage. The woman in front of us is a massive noob and can't figure out that she needed to get a ticket from the machine for the gate to open. So she starts backing up. I have a fear of idiots backing into me after the last ordeal, so I back up. And feel a bump. HOORAY I HIT SOMEONE. /facepalm. And thus, my fear of idiots made me become an idiot, and I backed into someone. He had a BMW that's been waxed like crazy, so it was obvious that he loves his car. Thank god there was no damage, I seriously can't handle dealing with anymore insurance companies. That could have turned out so much worse so I guess I should be grateful that bumpers actually do their job sometimes.

Mondays seriously suck. Not only is my 3 hour long Directing class insanely boring and pointless, but things always tend to go wrong on Mondays. When I got out of class, it was storming. Ugh, "light showers", huh news reporters? So I get to my car, dripping and soaked, and 19th avenue is completely stopped. Sitting there, dripping wet in traffic = sucks. People are apparantly afraid of driving over puddles these days, because that was the only reason they were driving 5 miles an hour. Then of course, soon my pick-me-up-on-mondays smoothie started catching up to me.. and I got stuck on the bridge, in traffic, while it's pouring rain, and having to pee. TERRIBLE FEELING AAAGH. Thank god for the lovely tourist view stop at the end of the bridge with 4 bathrooms, yayy.

I didn't go to my Tuesday night class last week because of the crazy storm, and we never do anything in that class anyway. I e-mailed him hours before class last week asking if there's anything I can do for homework. He never e-mailed me back, so I figured it was fine. Until just now, when he sent out a massive e-mail to the class saying we need to write a paper on some video they watched last week. Ok??? He could've told me a LITTLE bit earlier so I could try to watch it on youtube or something last week, as opposed to 11pm the night before it's due. Ugggh.

Does anybody else who has Comcast internet been having serious downtime? The past week the internet has been shutting itself off for about 10 hours a day, no matter how much I reset the modem. Is anybody else getting long downtimes of internet?

It's time to jump on the bandwagon of Tsubasa fans and say, "What the HELL kind of an ending is that?!?!?"

( I can't be more disappointed. )

Of course, there is still one more "epilogue" chapter next week, as well as xxxHolic which will go until December. But I highly doubt that either of these things are going to make me feel satisfied over this horrible cop-out ending of Tsubasa. Even though CLAMP insisted that they planned this ending from the very beginning, I can't help but think they just decided to end it just for the sake of ending it, in a completely unsatisfying way, just because they have so many projects coming up. As a very dedicated fan, I feel betrayed.

Ah, it's been awhile! I've been having pretty much the busiest summer ever. After John's graduation, we came back here and soon went back to Chico for 2 weeks. Had a good time, except the whole moving out of his apartment thing. Somehow it was more emotional for me than it was for him, heh. We've had Chico since the beginning of our relationship, and it was the place we could really be alone and "play house", so to speak. We had our biggest fights there, but also most of our most romantic moments. It's weird not having Chico anymore. Ah, speaking of which, during our respite there we celebrated out 6th year anniversary/John's birthday. Crazy that we've been together 6 years now, haha ^^ Ate at an amazing steakhouse that we never got to go to before, and dang I wish they had one here, because the steak literally melted in my mouth. Yum. Anyway, at the end of the 2 weeks, we were too cheap to get a UHaul to move his stuff, so we used his mom's mini SUV to pack up his stuff.. it was extremely stressful. It took us 9 hours of shoving boxes in, rearranging, taking things out, putting them back in.. every single inch of the car was full of stuff @.@ Annnd we did it all in 105 degree weather. UGH. It was a horrible day. Ended up driving it all home at midnight, which wasn't safe.. got home around 3:30am.

About 2 days later, we got on a plane and went off to LA for Anime Expo. Absolutely amazing weekend, definitely made up for the fact that we were barely at Fanime. I'll have details for AX sometime soon, already wrote up most of it.

Last Friday, the 17th, was my birthday. Yay for being 23. Didn't do anything except had fondue with John and my mom. Ended up spending most of the day being depressed and feeling sorry for myself. Lame of me, ne? Been feeling extremely down and sad for about a week now, not sure what to do about it.

Yesterday we went to the Final Fantasy Symphony.. but just before we left my mom and I had a huge fight, so she decided to ruin the night as best as she could by being an absolute bitch and not talking to me or John all night, and making the whole night uncomfortable. I tried not to let it get to me though, because the music was absolutely fantastic. Loved Ronfaure the most, as always. Except they didn't play the song I was looking forward to most, Distant Worlds.. even though the whole concert was NAMED after that song. Weird.

There's a lot of other stuff going on, but I'll just end the post here for now. Just wanted to give a little update in case anyone thought I disappeared, haha.

My computer was giving me so much hell for the past month! It would shut itself down (right when I was in the middle of something of course. Or right when I attempted to get online), the backlight on the screen would shut itself off whenever it felt like it (and wouldnt turn back on without a reboot), and it took about 18 tries to turn it on most days.. and when you finally did get it to boot, it would shut itself down 10 minutes later. It sucked. Finally a few days ago when I tried to turn it on, I heard a loud pop followed by the distinct and horrible smell of burning electronics. And that was that, my computer had finally ended its life. So, I went down to Best Buy and got my birthday present more than a month early this year XD I got a Gateway FX gaming laptop, which I just love to pieces so far. It's manly as all heck, it looks like Halloweentown with its black and orange coloring, but ohhhh man. Loving it anyway! Ahh it's so nice not to be annoyed with my computer.

Total change of topic:
Today I spent some time replacing some posters and wallscrolls, so I now have a summer theme going on ^^ It's.. bright in here with all these happy summer posters, but it's a nice change. So earlier, I was trying to decide which wallscroll to put by my window, and I asked my mom her opinion on which to put up. She chose this wallscroll: http://www.toysnjoys.com/wallscrolls/ge9734.jpg

And her reason for choosing this one?

"I like this one because it looks like they just had great sex, they look happy and satisfied. And they look like they're about to go out for donuts."

LOL LOL LOL. What in the world?! XD I was laughing so hard, it was so out of the blue. And she said it with a total straight face. Ohhh man. Needless to say, now I will always think of sex and donuts when I look at this on my wall XD

Fanime report and John's graduation post are still getting worked on! Ehhhehe ^^; I'm always so late with posting events, lol.

I still owe a Fanime report and a report on John's graduation, which will be typed up soon! But since E3 is going on I had to make a post about what I just heard.

Final Fantasy 14, surprisingly, is going to be online. And not just that.. the reason I'm excited is becuase people are calling it FFXI-2. Judging by the trailer, even though the areas look different, the race choices are definitely the same.. so I would assume that the rumors of it being an FFXI-2 are correct. OH MY GOD. The graphics.. the graphics!. Even though FFXI is about 6 years old now, some of the areas still take my breath away. But this... this is just incredible.



I am wholeheartedly hoping that they'll let us port our characters from XI into XIV, because after all the work I put into Azalie (and currently still am), I'd hate to just start over again. But.. imagining an FFXI with PS3 graphics.. I'm trembling with excitement. I honestly thought they would never make another online Final Fantasy game, especially since FFXI is still very popular. But I'm not complaining, noooo I am not. ♥ ♥ I will absolutely be looking forward to 2010.

Random: I love how the generic Hume male spokesperson for FFXI (seriously, he's on all the posters) went from a boy to a MAN in this game. lol XD Ohhh I can't wait to see what my character looks like with the new graphics, you have no idea *nerdgasm*. Trailer is here if anyone is interested~: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fETeHFATJw8

I have a ton of other stuff to post about, this summer has been crazy busy so far. I'll get on those entries soon XD

Summer is here! ... Well technically my summer started a week ago, but I had to turn in a "daily journal" (which I never wrote in till 2 days before it was due, whoops!) on Monday. But now, it is officially summer ^^ Speaking of that journal, I have a funny story about turning it in. Had to go to her office hours to turn it in because I uh.. completely forgot about it until it was mentioned on the last day of class, haha. Since I had to write in it so quickly, I ended up putting in some of my poems that I'd written in the past. I tend to like writing character POV poems, and I put a few in there to fill some pages. I thought my professor was just going to flip through my journal to make sure I wrote in it everyday, I figured she wouldn't actually read any of it. But instead, she opens to a random page and starts reading... and of course, she opens to the one clone Syaoran POV poem about murdering people for feathers. Lets just say it's really graphic. /facepalm. Of course she has no way of knowing it's a character poem, so as she read it her smile dropped into a "Ho shit" face. She thinks I'm some psycho serial killer now. LOL. But hey, it might of been a good thing, because after she read it she looked at her gradebook and said, "You get an A in the class." Now, I NEVER spoke in this class, I performed one monologue that I bombed on (we were supposed to perform as often as possible), and I missed more classes than I should have. So maybe she gave me an A so I won't come after her later on? XD lol! But hey, I'm not complaining!

Fanime is the day after tomorrow and I can't believe it. Times going by so quickly. Is anybody here going to Fanime? Most people I've talked to aren't going this year, which is a shame. I'm only gonna be there till Saturday afternoon, but expect a Con Report anyway. It's tradition after all! XD Saturday night John, me, and my mom are off to Chico for John's graduation on Sunday ^^ Very excited, it should be a fun weekend.

Changed up my LJ layout (again!), but this time I just can't get the spacing right >_< Why do they make changing your layout so fricking difficult? But oh well, I adore this picture, so this layout will stay X3 In nerdy fandom news: Omfg the new Tsubasa chapter! SakuSyao love confession after 6 YEARS of manga, they FINALLY said it ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ It made me squee for hours ^___^ Ahh, I am such a nerdy loser, I get ecstatic over the fate of fictional characters XD I also have a whole speech about how beautiful the new Tsubasa OAD episode is, but I think my nerd meter has already reached critical mass in this entry so I'll save it for later XD *ahem*

Just when I was going to talk about something not geeky, but no, I have to say it! The most exciting thing that happened over the weekend: I FINALLY got my Summoner job to level 75 (the highest level) in Final Fantasy XI ^___^ It took me a few years, but I couldn't be happier about it. Every summer my goal would be to get to level 75, and it never happened till now ^_^ Even though it's just a game, I've spent so much time and energy on it that it's something I feel really proud of. I wish I took a screenshot of leveling up, but I was too excited to think about it XD lol.

Time to go do some chores and prepare for Fanime, I hope to see some of you guys there!

Its all fine and good when your bank is looking out for you, but WOW. My bank is a little too overexcited lately. I bought something from a Japanese website last week, and a day later I get literally 8 phone calls every 20 minutes from the bank about "suspicious behavoir." I didn't answer because they fricking started calling at 7am.. I was half asleep and thought I was having some sort of endless phone ringing nightmare. And I knew that the only reason they were freaking out because some Hiragana showed up on my statement, no big deal. So, I tried to pay for Mothers Day dinner tonight.. and my card got declined. WTF? So apparently the bank froze my account because of ONE $30 purchase from a Japanese website. Dude, really? You really have to freeze my entire account over $30?? If it was $200, or even $100, then yeah I would understand that it would look a little suspicious. But $30? My bank is a little too overzealous with their patrol, there.

It's annoying and I hate making unnecessary phone calls only to be put on hold forever D: Ewww bank help lines, ewwwww.

Thank you all for the comments in my last entry, reading them really helped me out. I'll catch up on comment replies soon, sorry its taking so long!

Ahh I wrote this on Friday and never posted, so I'll just go ahead and post it now:
David Copperfield show was pretty cool. The first 20 minutes were a little lame, but then the tricks got really good. Overall it was a very entertaining way to spend a Thursday night. He of course called up audience members, and I swear that my old friend Shira was called up to the stage. She looked like her, she even said her name was Shira. I thought she was back in Isreal, though. Guess I have to go on the oh so dreaded Myspace (*shudder*) and see if she's back here. Edit: Yep, that was definitely her. lol, and then I saw another person I wasn't expecting to see. On our way out of the parking lots there was a car with a license plate that said "Ahhimsa". Which instantly reminded me of my Gandhi professor from last semester, because he was obsessed with talking about the idea of Ahimsa. Then as the car in front of us turned I notice the guy in the drivers seat is really old, has thick glasses, and very little hair. Nah, it couldn't be.. my mom sped up to pass him, and sure enough, it was my Gandhi professor himself XD Hahaha! I guess you never know who you're going to find at a David Copperfield show, lol.

I apologize for the bipolarness of this entry, but here's what I have to write about today:
My mom has once again been attacking me for no real reason. I walked into her room to talk about something silly, and she busts out yelling at me for "having no future." Wow, what? Apparantly, she thinks because I don't live in LA (nor do I have any desire to live in LA), that I'm not working in a theater 24/7 like other people, and that I really don't love drama as much as I used to... that all these factors lead to me having no future, in ANYTHING. Maybe I don't have a future in theater, at least not as a primary money making job, but I do think that the skills that I'm learning in (some, not all!) theater classes help in everyday life and would help in other jobs. Maybe I won't be a movie star. Maybe that's not what I want, anyway. It looks like she has finally joined the band of other moms with theater majoring kids in the world who say, "Majoring in theater will get you nowhere, you should've majored in business instead." Kind of late. But I mean, honestly, what do you do with ANY major? What do you do with a PoliSci major? What do you do with an Asian Am major? What do you do with a History major? I don't think there are many majors where you are absolutely certain you'll have a job for the rest of your life, except maybe studying medical. So I don't see why she has to be on my case and telling me that I'm going to be a nobody for the rest of my life. It's not the greatest thing to hear. Maybe I don't have a perfect plan for my life, but is that really so different than other 22 year olds?

I'll be somebody. I just don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet.

Busy busy busy. I've been planning to go to events lately, which is a good thing. The new Death Note movie is showing in theaters tomorrow, but as much as I love Death Note, I'm still not decided if I'm going to go or not.. mostly because I would be alone, it's 2 hours and 40 minutes long, and costs $12.50. Gaaaah. Guess we'll see how tomorrow goes! Seeing David Copperfield on Thursday (something on my mom's bucket list, and hey, I don't mind a good magic show), and I got really great seats for the Final Fantasy Symphony in July (happening a day after my birthday, so yay, I actually have birthday plans for once!). And I just found out that Michael J Fox is speaking at the Herbst Theatre on Friday. AAAAGGGH WHY DIDNT I KNOW SOONER?! Of course it's crazily sold out. Damn, I would love to go see him. Really bummed about that.

Had a busy day today running around school meeting with advisors and chairs and all sorts of people. Finally, after putting it off so long, I've officially declared my Asian American Studies minor (with many odd glances from my new advisor, everyone in the AAS office, and I even got a ".... are you sure you're looking for the AAS chairman?"). Oh, racism. Turns out I'm completely done with my minor, like I'd hoped I was. *phew*. Also met with my Theater advisor, after waiting literally 40 minutes in the hallway while he flirted with a freshman girl in his office (not sure if anyone will remember, but he's the professor I had awhile ago that said, "I only like pretty people."). I love how he spent less than 3 minutes with my advising appointment. No flirting at me in the least! Haha! Anyway, he wasn't helpful at all, just told me what I already knew. I only need 3 more theater classes, wooo~ Looks like I'll be done after one more semester after all ^^

Not much else going on.. just trying to get a ton of stuff done before summer arrives. Oh yeah, my car is finally in the shop and getting the bumper fixed, so I'm rolling in a Pontiac rental car! It's.. surprisingly not that bad. You can turn the car engine on without getting in it or turning the key, and that amuses me greatly... and I don't know why XD lol. *random end to the post!*

Fellow Marin-ites: Who else has gone to Northgate lately and been shocked to find that everything is closed except Sears and Macys? Yet they still let you walk around the mall, even though there's NOTHING in it. And my god, it looks so.. so.. Marin now. Theres little fake windows with little fake terraces above, theres pillars and fru-fru signs with cutesy little names for each section of the mall.. like, they're calling the aisle of shops where Gamestop used to be the "Ivy Grove" section of the mall. What in the...? What is this cheesy-looking mall that has replaced the ONE normal hang out area around here? Baaaaaaah. I miss Gamestop already ;_; If they start replacing all the stores with ridiculous, "fashionable", the-cheapest-thing-we-have-is-this-scarf-for-$400 stores, I'm going to be really sad. And whats up with the food court being right next to the movie theatre? That hallway smells enough with all the popcorn, now its going to smell like popcorn+pretzel(I have no idea how to spell pretzel)+burgers+pizza, which is going to be sickening. lol. And oh god, to top it all off, the entire mall was full of screaming, fangirling tween girls seeing the Hannah Montana movie. Loud, loud, loud screaming fangirls, everywhere. Although, I did happen to hear 2 girls talking about how hot L looks in the Death Note movie poster, so that made me smile while I was among the sea of tweens. Haha.

Went on a grand adventure trying to find Professor Layton for my mom's birthday this Sunday.. apparently Lisa Kudrow and her fights with her friend appeal to moms and make them buy video games, I don't know, but she really wants it now. Went to Best Buy, they didn't have it, went to Northgate and obviously Gamestop is long gone and torn apart with the rest of the mall, pondered travelling all the way to Target but I called John to have him check online to see if they had it in stock.. no good. The other Best Buy didn't have it either, so my mission was a failure. Seriously, why are they advertising Professor Layton now? Didn't it come out, like, at least a year ago? Really weird marketing plan, to advertise this late after it's out, making it impossible to find since it's so old. Hrmm. Looks like I'll have to get it online after all.

Ugh, moodswings can be such a hassle. At one moment I'm ecstatic and dancing around about something as silly as a picture (clooooones omg yay), the next I'm red-eye-furious over insurance companies not calling me back, the next I'm sobbing... just from listening to the FFXI opening theme. I.. don't know either. Granted, the song is a beautiful piece of composition, but sobbing uncontrollably over it just isn't normal. This kind of thing has happened before. The Return of the Extreme Mood Swings! Thats my movie title this month, haha. Beware my mood swings, beware them.

*sudden shift in mood, wtf*

I've been thinking a lot about the different chapters in my life.. particularly since a new chapter will be starting in a few weeks, when John graduates. Which will most likely mean that we'll get our own place soon. I guess I'm realizing that I'm a little bit afraid of change. And I feel guilty way more often than I should, particularly guilt from leaving my mom alone. At the same time, I'm 22, and should be making decisions for myself. But then I see her crying when I just go to Chico for a few days, and I feel guilty all over again. To live with guilt or to start living my own life? Decisions, decisions. This is probably the main cause for my sudden mood swings, I have a lot to work out within myself in these next few weeks.

So after putting it off for a long time, I finally sat down to beat Eternal Sonata, and I just finished watching the ending.

...... Am I on drugs? Is the ending supposed to fry brains like an egg on a sidewalk? I just can't make heads or tails of the ending at all. ( Spoilertastic for ending to Eternal Sonata ) Yes I'm thinking about this ending too much XD I'm really trying to make some kind of sense of the whole thing. Oh, and the snail and the caterpiller talking about "the shape of life" like a children's puppetshow? My brain quite possibly imploded at that point. Someone who has beaten Eternal Sonata, did the ending make sense to you at all..? I've seen some really ambiguous anime endings where you can at least make your own interpretation out of what happened... but that... Eternal Sonata takes the cake for completely confusing I-must-be-on-drugs ambiguous endings, lol.

Spring Break is over.. kinda sorta XD My Monday class was cancelled, it was a holiday on tuesday, and I only had one class today that lasted 10 minutes. This almost like a 2nd spring break, hehe.

A few things that happened over the "official" spring break:
-Went to Chico with John, spent the entire week there
-Saw Coraline, which is really a fantastic movie!
-GAMER TALK: Finished Shadow Hearts: Covenant. OH MY GOD. I am in love with the ending and it ended even better than I expected it would (and I had very high expectations). AHHH. So fantastic and squee and oh god I never would have guessed that fact about Karin. Wow. And I ship YurixAlice even more than I did before, they are so adorable and awesome and squeetastic. ♥ And now I can finally use the icon that I have of them XD
-OMG GAMER TALK AGAIN: Started SMT: Devil Summoner. ..... Personas have personalities?!?! Greatest thing ever! "I failed! P-Pinapple!" And the Jacks (I've always had a soft spot for Jack Frost, so cute ;_;) saying "Ho" after everything is priceless and endlessly amusing. And you can use their abilities on the field?! And even walk around as them?! Fricking awesome. I've heard some terrible reviews of this game but I don't get it, I think it's incredibly well done so far. Granted, the almost constant random demon encounters (seriously, every 3 steps is a random encounter, even in towns wtf) get on my nerves sometimes, but I'm still loving the game as a whole.
-Ate junk food like no tomorrow! One day we were craving nachos at like midnight, and the only place open was Carls Jr, so we went to their website and saw they have nachos. Yeah, wtf? lol. Anyway, we went there and we didn't see nachos on the menu, so John said, "Do you have nachos????" And the girl paused for a long time then said "No, go to the AM PM across the street." Hahahahahaha. I think you had to be there, but it was funny XD
-We "got our drink on" as we like to say. Bought some Smirnoff because we are lightweights and hate the taste of alcohol. John ended up drinking 1 and didn't want anymore... while I drank 4. GO ME! I got drunk and it was kind of hilarious because I do crazy things when I'm drunk XD Hehe. I'm a once-a-year drunk though, so I got the experience out of my system for this year.
-Went to one of John's classes.. ugh, it was deathly boring. Don't know how he puts up with a professor thats that boring @.@
-Plenty of relaxing and sleeping

Those are the less-serious things that happened, but I also had some serious revelations about myself and some aspects about my personality that need to be changed for the better. I'm sure I'll have a seperate post later on about how I'm going to change my life around, since this post is long enough and I'd rather keep it light hearted.

It's kind of crazy how fast this semester is flying by.. less than 2 months until the semester is over, and John graduates! So excited~

This week has been fairly eventful, I've certainly been out of the house a lot XD It's Johns spring break (Yay!), so he's been here keeping me company. It's always nice ^_^ On Monday he came with me to school, even though my class was 3 hours long. Monologue class was actually really fun. There's this guy Tony that I worked with during the dance show, and when we went to the theatre across the hallway to do our "character exercises", all of a sudden he got up in front of the class and the professor declared that he would teach salsa lessons XD! It was so random, but so much fun. Apparently we're going to salsa dance every week, for no reason at all. Sometimes theatre classes are awesome. lol. We also got to scream random things and people in the hall kept stopping to look inside because they thought we were weird. Yay. lol. When I got out, John was waiting for me with my favorite snack on campus: a hot dog bun and a onion pancake. I thought that was incredibly sweet of him ^_^ I'm so spoiled X3 After that we went to Daiso Japan (basically a giant Japanese $1 store) for a bit, then went to Chevys for dinner.

St. Patricks Day was low key. Had a midterm that (hopefully) went well, then we headed to Clement street to pick up some buns. Except we got massively sidetracked by the stores and ended up not getting to the bakery before it closed XD Epic bun fail! But I did find some adorable Pikachu bowls for $2, and.. some random-as-frick bootleg CCS photo albums. You never know what you'll find in Gift Shops XD It started getting late and the drunkards were already starting to appear, so we headed back home. Went to a hof brau and picked up the obligatory corned beef and cabbage meals, then came back to my place to eat them. Mmm, corned beef ♥

And the new Tsubasa OAD came out yesterday.. and wow it's pretty. I found it to have better animation than Tokyo Revelations, it seems more fluid to me. But it needs more Syaoran Vs. Syaoran action ;_; Kind of sad that they're leaving the battle for the next episode, but I guess it makes sense. Agh, I just realized I dont have any icons from it yet, that must be remedied. And the newest Tsubasa chapter? OMFG. All I have to say is, CLAMP broke my brain yet again. Yet another aspect from the very beginning that NOBODY would have guessed. I can't believe the twists and turns that Tsubasa has, amazing.

Tomorrow should be a fun-filled day, going to a resturaunt we've never been to, and then we're going to a night life event at the museum for 21+ where you can explore the new Academy of Sciences museum at night. Means there won't be any kids there, which could be a good thing. Hopefully a bunch of drunk people > a bunch of screaming kids. lol.