Ash Crazy Kristen

My computer was giving me so much hell for the past month! It would shut itself down (right when I was in the middle of something of course. Or right when I attempted to get online), the backlight on the screen would shut itself off whenever it felt like it (and wouldnt turn back on without a reboot), and it took about 18 tries to turn it on most days.. and when you finally did get it to boot, it would shut itself down 10 minutes later. It sucked. Finally a few days ago when I tried to turn it on, I heard a loud pop followed by the distinct and horrible smell of burning electronics. And that was that, my computer had finally ended its life. So, I went down to Best Buy and got my birthday present more than a month early this year XD I got a Gateway FX gaming laptop, which I just love to pieces so far. It's manly as all heck, it looks like Halloweentown with its black and orange coloring, but ohhhh man. Loving it anyway! Ahh it's so nice not to be annoyed with my computer.

Total change of topic:
Today I spent some time replacing some posters and wallscrolls, so I now have a summer theme going on ^^ It's.. bright in here with all these happy summer posters, but it's a nice change. So earlier, I was trying to decide which wallscroll to put by my window, and I asked my mom her opinion on which to put up. She chose this wallscroll: http://www.toysnjoys.com/wallscrolls/ge9734.jpg

And her reason for choosing this one?

"I like this one because it looks like they just had great sex, they look happy and satisfied. And they look like they're about to go out for donuts."

LOL LOL LOL. What in the world?! XD I was laughing so hard, it was so out of the blue. And she said it with a total straight face. Ohhh man. Needless to say, now I will always think of sex and donuts when I look at this on my wall XD

Fanime report and John's graduation post are still getting worked on! Ehhhehe ^^; I'm always so late with posting events, lol.

I still owe a Fanime report and a report on John's graduation, which will be typed up soon! But since E3 is going on I had to make a post about what I just heard.

Final Fantasy 14, surprisingly, is going to be online. And not just that.. the reason I'm excited is becuase people are calling it FFXI-2. Judging by the trailer, even though the areas look different, the race choices are definitely the same.. so I would assume that the rumors of it being an FFXI-2 are correct. OH MY GOD. The graphics.. the graphics!. Even though FFXI is about 6 years old now, some of the areas still take my breath away. But this... this is just incredible.



I am wholeheartedly hoping that they'll let us port our characters from XI into XIV, because after all the work I put into Azalie (and currently still am), I'd hate to just start over again. But.. imagining an FFXI with PS3 graphics.. I'm trembling with excitement. I honestly thought they would never make another online Final Fantasy game, especially since FFXI is still very popular. But I'm not complaining, noooo I am not. ♥ ♥ I will absolutely be looking forward to 2010.

Random: I love how the generic Hume male spokesperson for FFXI (seriously, he's on all the posters) went from a boy to a MAN in this game. lol XD Ohhh I can't wait to see what my character looks like with the new graphics, you have no idea *nerdgasm*. Trailer is here if anyone is interested~: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fETeHFATJw8

I have a ton of other stuff to post about, this summer has been crazy busy so far. I'll get on those entries soon XD

Summer is here! ... Well technically my summer started a week ago, but I had to turn in a "daily journal" (which I never wrote in till 2 days before it was due, whoops!) on Monday. But now, it is officially summer ^^ Speaking of that journal, I have a funny story about turning it in. Had to go to her office hours to turn it in because I uh.. completely forgot about it until it was mentioned on the last day of class, haha. Since I had to write in it so quickly, I ended up putting in some of my poems that I'd written in the past. I tend to like writing character POV poems, and I put a few in there to fill some pages. I thought my professor was just going to flip through my journal to make sure I wrote in it everyday, I figured she wouldn't actually read any of it. But instead, she opens to a random page and starts reading... and of course, she opens to the one clone Syaoran POV poem about murdering people for feathers. Lets just say it's really graphic. /facepalm. Of course she has no way of knowing it's a character poem, so as she read it her smile dropped into a "Ho shit" face. She thinks I'm some psycho serial killer now. LOL. But hey, it might of been a good thing, because after she read it she looked at her gradebook and said, "You get an A in the class." Now, I NEVER spoke in this class, I performed one monologue that I bombed on (we were supposed to perform as often as possible), and I missed more classes than I should have. So maybe she gave me an A so I won't come after her later on? XD lol! But hey, I'm not complaining!

Fanime is the day after tomorrow and I can't believe it. Times going by so quickly. Is anybody here going to Fanime? Most people I've talked to aren't going this year, which is a shame. I'm only gonna be there till Saturday afternoon, but expect a Con Report anyway. It's tradition after all! XD Saturday night John, me, and my mom are off to Chico for John's graduation on Sunday ^^ Very excited, it should be a fun weekend.

Changed up my LJ layout (again!), but this time I just can't get the spacing right >_< Why do they make changing your layout so fricking difficult? But oh well, I adore this picture, so this layout will stay X3 In nerdy fandom news: Omfg the new Tsubasa chapter! SakuSyao love confession after 6 YEARS of manga, they FINALLY said it ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ It made me squee for hours ^___^ Ahh, I am such a nerdy loser, I get ecstatic over the fate of fictional characters XD I also have a whole speech about how beautiful the new Tsubasa OAD episode is, but I think my nerd meter has already reached critical mass in this entry so I'll save it for later XD *ahem*

Just when I was going to talk about something not geeky, but no, I have to say it! The most exciting thing that happened over the weekend: I FINALLY got my Summoner job to level 75 (the highest level) in Final Fantasy XI ^___^ It took me a few years, but I couldn't be happier about it. Every summer my goal would be to get to level 75, and it never happened till now ^_^ Even though it's just a game, I've spent so much time and energy on it that it's something I feel really proud of. I wish I took a screenshot of leveling up, but I was too excited to think about it XD lol.

Time to go do some chores and prepare for Fanime, I hope to see some of you guys there!

Its all fine and good when your bank is looking out for you, but WOW. My bank is a little too overexcited lately. I bought something from a Japanese website last week, and a day later I get literally 8 phone calls every 20 minutes from the bank about "suspicious behavoir." I didn't answer because they fricking started calling at 7am.. I was half asleep and thought I was having some sort of endless phone ringing nightmare. And I knew that the only reason they were freaking out because some Hiragana showed up on my statement, no big deal. So, I tried to pay for Mothers Day dinner tonight.. and my card got declined. WTF? So apparently the bank froze my account because of ONE $30 purchase from a Japanese website. Dude, really? You really have to freeze my entire account over $30?? If it was $200, or even $100, then yeah I would understand that it would look a little suspicious. But $30? My bank is a little too overzealous with their patrol, there.

It's annoying and I hate making unnecessary phone calls only to be put on hold forever D: Ewww bank help lines, ewwwww.

Thank you all for the comments in my last entry, reading them really helped me out. I'll catch up on comment replies soon, sorry its taking so long!

Ahh I wrote this on Friday and never posted, so I'll just go ahead and post it now:
David Copperfield show was pretty cool. The first 20 minutes were a little lame, but then the tricks got really good. Overall it was a very entertaining way to spend a Thursday night. He of course called up audience members, and I swear that my old friend Shira was called up to the stage. She looked like her, she even said her name was Shira. I thought she was back in Isreal, though. Guess I have to go on the oh so dreaded Myspace (*shudder*) and see if she's back here. Edit: Yep, that was definitely her. lol, and then I saw another person I wasn't expecting to see. On our way out of the parking lots there was a car with a license plate that said "Ahhimsa". Which instantly reminded me of my Gandhi professor from last semester, because he was obsessed with talking about the idea of Ahimsa. Then as the car in front of us turned I notice the guy in the drivers seat is really old, has thick glasses, and very little hair. Nah, it couldn't be.. my mom sped up to pass him, and sure enough, it was my Gandhi professor himself XD Hahaha! I guess you never know who you're going to find at a David Copperfield show, lol.

I apologize for the bipolarness of this entry, but here's what I have to write about today:
My mom has once again been attacking me for no real reason. I walked into her room to talk about something silly, and she busts out yelling at me for "having no future." Wow, what? Apparantly, she thinks because I don't live in LA (nor do I have any desire to live in LA), that I'm not working in a theater 24/7 like other people, and that I really don't love drama as much as I used to... that all these factors lead to me having no future, in ANYTHING. Maybe I don't have a future in theater, at least not as a primary money making job, but I do think that the skills that I'm learning in (some, not all!) theater classes help in everyday life and would help in other jobs. Maybe I won't be a movie star. Maybe that's not what I want, anyway. It looks like she has finally joined the band of other moms with theater majoring kids in the world who say, "Majoring in theater will get you nowhere, you should've majored in business instead." Kind of late. But I mean, honestly, what do you do with ANY major? What do you do with a PoliSci major? What do you do with an Asian Am major? What do you do with a History major? I don't think there are many majors where you are absolutely certain you'll have a job for the rest of your life, except maybe studying medical. So I don't see why she has to be on my case and telling me that I'm going to be a nobody for the rest of my life. It's not the greatest thing to hear. Maybe I don't have a perfect plan for my life, but is that really so different than other 22 year olds?

I'll be somebody. I just don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet.

Busy busy busy. I've been planning to go to events lately, which is a good thing. The new Death Note movie is showing in theaters tomorrow, but as much as I love Death Note, I'm still not decided if I'm going to go or not.. mostly because I would be alone, it's 2 hours and 40 minutes long, and costs $12.50. Gaaaah. Guess we'll see how tomorrow goes! Seeing David Copperfield on Thursday (something on my mom's bucket list, and hey, I don't mind a good magic show), and I got really great seats for the Final Fantasy Symphony in July (happening a day after my birthday, so yay, I actually have birthday plans for once!). And I just found out that Michael J Fox is speaking at the Herbst Theatre on Friday. AAAAGGGH WHY DIDNT I KNOW SOONER?! Of course it's crazily sold out. Damn, I would love to go see him. Really bummed about that.

Had a busy day today running around school meeting with advisors and chairs and all sorts of people. Finally, after putting it off so long, I've officially declared my Asian American Studies minor (with many odd glances from my new advisor, everyone in the AAS office, and I even got a ".... are you sure you're looking for the AAS chairman?"). Oh, racism. Turns out I'm completely done with my minor, like I'd hoped I was. *phew*. Also met with my Theater advisor, after waiting literally 40 minutes in the hallway while he flirted with a freshman girl in his office (not sure if anyone will remember, but he's the professor I had awhile ago that said, "I only like pretty people."). I love how he spent less than 3 minutes with my advising appointment. No flirting at me in the least! Haha! Anyway, he wasn't helpful at all, just told me what I already knew. I only need 3 more theater classes, wooo~ Looks like I'll be done after one more semester after all ^^

Not much else going on.. just trying to get a ton of stuff done before summer arrives. Oh yeah, my car is finally in the shop and getting the bumper fixed, so I'm rolling in a Pontiac rental car! It's.. surprisingly not that bad. You can turn the car engine on without getting in it or turning the key, and that amuses me greatly... and I don't know why XD lol. *random end to the post!*

Fellow Marin-ites: Who else has gone to Northgate lately and been shocked to find that everything is closed except Sears and Macys? Yet they still let you walk around the mall, even though there's NOTHING in it. And my god, it looks so.. so.. Marin now. Theres little fake windows with little fake terraces above, theres pillars and fru-fru signs with cutesy little names for each section of the mall.. like, they're calling the aisle of shops where Gamestop used to be the "Ivy Grove" section of the mall. What in the...? What is this cheesy-looking mall that has replaced the ONE normal hang out area around here? Baaaaaaah. I miss Gamestop already ;_; If they start replacing all the stores with ridiculous, "fashionable", the-cheapest-thing-we-have-is-this-scarf-for-$400 stores, I'm going to be really sad. And whats up with the food court being right next to the movie theatre? That hallway smells enough with all the popcorn, now its going to smell like popcorn+pretzel(I have no idea how to spell pretzel)+burgers+pizza, which is going to be sickening. lol. And oh god, to top it all off, the entire mall was full of screaming, fangirling tween girls seeing the Hannah Montana movie. Loud, loud, loud screaming fangirls, everywhere. Although, I did happen to hear 2 girls talking about how hot L looks in the Death Note movie poster, so that made me smile while I was among the sea of tweens. Haha.

Went on a grand adventure trying to find Professor Layton for my mom's birthday this Sunday.. apparently Lisa Kudrow and her fights with her friend appeal to moms and make them buy video games, I don't know, but she really wants it now. Went to Best Buy, they didn't have it, went to Northgate and obviously Gamestop is long gone and torn apart with the rest of the mall, pondered travelling all the way to Target but I called John to have him check online to see if they had it in stock.. no good. The other Best Buy didn't have it either, so my mission was a failure. Seriously, why are they advertising Professor Layton now? Didn't it come out, like, at least a year ago? Really weird marketing plan, to advertise this late after it's out, making it impossible to find since it's so old. Hrmm. Looks like I'll have to get it online after all.

Ugh, moodswings can be such a hassle. At one moment I'm ecstatic and dancing around about something as silly as a picture (clooooones omg yay), the next I'm red-eye-furious over insurance companies not calling me back, the next I'm sobbing... just from listening to the FFXI opening theme. I.. don't know either. Granted, the song is a beautiful piece of composition, but sobbing uncontrollably over it just isn't normal. This kind of thing has happened before. The Return of the Extreme Mood Swings! Thats my movie title this month, haha. Beware my mood swings, beware them.

*sudden shift in mood, wtf*

I've been thinking a lot about the different chapters in my life.. particularly since a new chapter will be starting in a few weeks, when John graduates. Which will most likely mean that we'll get our own place soon. I guess I'm realizing that I'm a little bit afraid of change. And I feel guilty way more often than I should, particularly guilt from leaving my mom alone. At the same time, I'm 22, and should be making decisions for myself. But then I see her crying when I just go to Chico for a few days, and I feel guilty all over again. To live with guilt or to start living my own life? Decisions, decisions. This is probably the main cause for my sudden mood swings, I have a lot to work out within myself in these next few weeks.

So after putting it off for a long time, I finally sat down to beat Eternal Sonata, and I just finished watching the ending.

...... Am I on drugs? Is the ending supposed to fry brains like an egg on a sidewalk? I just can't make heads or tails of the ending at all. ( Spoilertastic for ending to Eternal Sonata ) Yes I'm thinking about this ending too much XD I'm really trying to make some kind of sense of the whole thing. Oh, and the snail and the caterpiller talking about "the shape of life" like a children's puppetshow? My brain quite possibly imploded at that point. Someone who has beaten Eternal Sonata, did the ending make sense to you at all..? I've seen some really ambiguous anime endings where you can at least make your own interpretation out of what happened... but that... Eternal Sonata takes the cake for completely confusing I-must-be-on-drugs ambiguous endings, lol.

Spring Break is over.. kinda sorta XD My Monday class was cancelled, it was a holiday on tuesday, and I only had one class today that lasted 10 minutes. This almost like a 2nd spring break, hehe.

A few things that happened over the "official" spring break:
-Went to Chico with John, spent the entire week there
-Saw Coraline, which is really a fantastic movie!
-GAMER TALK: Finished Shadow Hearts: Covenant. OH MY GOD. I am in love with the ending and it ended even better than I expected it would (and I had very high expectations). AHHH. So fantastic and squee and oh god I never would have guessed that fact about Karin. Wow. And I ship YurixAlice even more than I did before, they are so adorable and awesome and squeetastic. ♥ And now I can finally use the icon that I have of them XD
-OMG GAMER TALK AGAIN: Started SMT: Devil Summoner. ..... Personas have personalities?!?! Greatest thing ever! "I failed! P-Pinapple!" And the Jacks (I've always had a soft spot for Jack Frost, so cute ;_;) saying "Ho" after everything is priceless and endlessly amusing. And you can use their abilities on the field?! And even walk around as them?! Fricking awesome. I've heard some terrible reviews of this game but I don't get it, I think it's incredibly well done so far. Granted, the almost constant random demon encounters (seriously, every 3 steps is a random encounter, even in towns wtf) get on my nerves sometimes, but I'm still loving the game as a whole.
-Ate junk food like no tomorrow! One day we were craving nachos at like midnight, and the only place open was Carls Jr, so we went to their website and saw they have nachos. Yeah, wtf? lol. Anyway, we went there and we didn't see nachos on the menu, so John said, "Do you have nachos????" And the girl paused for a long time then said "No, go to the AM PM across the street." Hahahahahaha. I think you had to be there, but it was funny XD
-We "got our drink on" as we like to say. Bought some Smirnoff because we are lightweights and hate the taste of alcohol. John ended up drinking 1 and didn't want anymore... while I drank 4. GO ME! I got drunk and it was kind of hilarious because I do crazy things when I'm drunk XD Hehe. I'm a once-a-year drunk though, so I got the experience out of my system for this year.
-Went to one of John's classes.. ugh, it was deathly boring. Don't know how he puts up with a professor thats that boring @.@
-Plenty of relaxing and sleeping

Those are the less-serious things that happened, but I also had some serious revelations about myself and some aspects about my personality that need to be changed for the better. I'm sure I'll have a seperate post later on about how I'm going to change my life around, since this post is long enough and I'd rather keep it light hearted.

It's kind of crazy how fast this semester is flying by.. less than 2 months until the semester is over, and John graduates! So excited~

This week has been fairly eventful, I've certainly been out of the house a lot XD It's Johns spring break (Yay!), so he's been here keeping me company. It's always nice ^_^ On Monday he came with me to school, even though my class was 3 hours long. Monologue class was actually really fun. There's this guy Tony that I worked with during the dance show, and when we went to the theatre across the hallway to do our "character exercises", all of a sudden he got up in front of the class and the professor declared that he would teach salsa lessons XD! It was so random, but so much fun. Apparently we're going to salsa dance every week, for no reason at all. Sometimes theatre classes are awesome. lol. We also got to scream random things and people in the hall kept stopping to look inside because they thought we were weird. Yay. lol. When I got out, John was waiting for me with my favorite snack on campus: a hot dog bun and a onion pancake. I thought that was incredibly sweet of him ^_^ I'm so spoiled X3 After that we went to Daiso Japan (basically a giant Japanese $1 store) for a bit, then went to Chevys for dinner.

St. Patricks Day was low key. Had a midterm that (hopefully) went well, then we headed to Clement street to pick up some buns. Except we got massively sidetracked by the stores and ended up not getting to the bakery before it closed XD Epic bun fail! But I did find some adorable Pikachu bowls for $2, and.. some random-as-frick bootleg CCS photo albums. You never know what you'll find in Gift Shops XD It started getting late and the drunkards were already starting to appear, so we headed back home. Went to a hof brau and picked up the obligatory corned beef and cabbage meals, then came back to my place to eat them. Mmm, corned beef ♥

And the new Tsubasa OAD came out yesterday.. and wow it's pretty. I found it to have better animation than Tokyo Revelations, it seems more fluid to me. But it needs more Syaoran Vs. Syaoran action ;_; Kind of sad that they're leaving the battle for the next episode, but I guess it makes sense. Agh, I just realized I dont have any icons from it yet, that must be remedied. And the newest Tsubasa chapter? OMFG. All I have to say is, CLAMP broke my brain yet again. Yet another aspect from the very beginning that NOBODY would have guessed. I can't believe the twists and turns that Tsubasa has, amazing.

Tomorrow should be a fun-filled day, going to a resturaunt we've never been to, and then we're going to a night life event at the museum for 21+ where you can explore the new Academy of Sciences museum at night. Means there won't be any kids there, which could be a good thing. Hopefully a bunch of drunk people > a bunch of screaming kids. lol.

*sitting there doing nothing for 3 hours before the show yet again, hanging out with the other crew heads*
Prod. Manager: "So, you guys know it's Daylight Savings tomorrow, right? An hour ahead."
Me: "*groan* So we technically have to be here at 9 tomorrow? Ugh. Can I show up at 10 and pretend I forgot?"
Prod. Manager: "Oh, didn't anybody tell you? You and the stage manager don't have to come in tomorrow, you're done after tonight."

OMG YESSSS. I am so done with technical theatre work, soooo done :D I thought I had 3 more days, but nope, all done! Hoo hah! The rest of the semester is going to be a breeze. It's time to stay up all night in celebration of being done with tech work X3 No more tech classes for me ever again~

My mom came to see the show tonight, that was cool. She wanted to see what I've been whining about for the past few weeks, haha XD We went to Mels afterwards because she's never been to one before. Things are going well again.

Well, time to crack open a soda and start up an FFXI session~

Dance show last night was the first actual performance, ohh it was pretty bad XD One of the headsets is completely messed up, and guess who got it? The lightboard operator, the one person that really needs it. So he couldn't hear when they told him to change light cues >_< Oh man, it was bad. lol. Luckily they got him another headset after the first few dances, but it was scary there for awhile. Tonights show went a lot better. Ew, I'm so not looking forward to another show tomorrow night, and then having to be there from 10am-5pm on sunday for strike when, as an assistant stage manager, I have nothing to strike @.@ Pointless, wasted hours. But ehh, enough about crew, its boring to talk about.

Lets talk about sex fandom stuff! *watches entire f-list scroll past this entry now* ^^; lol.

I continue to be in love with Clamp in Cardland cards (they're... so.. pretty *_*), so I bought 3 packs. And I somehow, incredibly, pulled the Secret Rare card of the 3rd series (Secret Rare cards are like, the rarest of the rare), and it's the Syaoran and Yuuko card that I never thought I'd have *___* YESSS. I may be having bad luck in all other areas of life, but damn, my card pulling luck is excellent these days XD watashipanda, if you're reading this, thank you for making my day and buying awesome packs for me ♥ XD

Man, staring at the stage lights all night really gives me a headache as soon as I get home >_< Gaaah. Oh yeah, and I forgot to mention on here that I played and beat Shadow Hearts 1 about a week ago.. and what a fantastic game it was. Got to admit, the first cutscene with the oh-so-wonderful detail of people's faces getting ripped off.. almost caused me to shut off the game (gory games scare me, because I am a wuss). But I'm glad I stuck with it, because I really loved it. I've just started Shadow Hearts: Covenant, and I'm loving the graphics upgrades (Yuri is fricking sexy and I would do him if I was single and he was real. Just saying XD). YurixAlice have been added to my favorite couples list, they are too cute. But I'm not loving the fact that it follows the bad ending for Shadow Hearts 1, after I got the good ending ;.; Whyy. I.. don't think anybody I know has played Shadow Hearts so this entire paragraph isnt going to make any sense to anybody ^^;

Blah, so tired, but I don't wanna sleep.

John came by over the weekend... and we ended up getting a room for a late Valentines Day celebration. But it wasn't just any room, it was a jacuzzi room! Ehehehe. Expensive, but it was worth it. This jacuzzi was freaking HUGE (you could fit 4 people in there!) and there was an entirely seperate room for it. Way awesome. Jacuzzis are so relaxing, I haven't been in one since I was 8. The room was really nice, very homey, seemed like an apartment. Although it might have seemed homey because.. it was right down the street from my house. Hahaha. When I said, "I can see my house from here", I meant it. My house could be seen from the hotel room window, so those blinds were kept closed :P It was quite nice though, very resort-like, marble tiled bathroom and of course the jacuzzi, and mirrors everywhere. Very nice place. Had dinner at a steakhouse we've never been to, and it was fantastic. I was having chestpains most of Saturday, but when I had meat it actually stopped for a good while. Maybe I'm low on iron? That could be. Anyway, it was a nice little mini vacation, even though it didn't go quite as planned... but eh, what does?

Today my brain must have been switched to the off position. I was walking out the door, when I noticed I wasn't wearing a bra. LOL. While I may have become very popular with the guys in my class, it would have been very awkward. Haha. And then when I arrived at school, I realized I had forgotten my wallet, and therefore could not pay for parking. AAAAGGGH. I was already late to class and freaking out because my prof is a stickler when it comes to tardies (you can only be late TWICE the entire semester, wtf!), and my mom was awesome and actually drove my wallet all the way to campus and paid for my parking while I was in class, so I was able to avoid a $75 parking ticket. She just had a small back operation last week to dull some of her pain, and its helped her mood tremendously. I hope things stay this way, I really do.

My assistant stage managing work for the Dance show started today and will go on until March 10th. Yep, that means staying on campus until at least 10 every single night (9-5 on Saturdays and Sundays, oh joy). Suck. I continue to not understand why performance majors need to spend so much fricking time on tech work when we're not going to be techies! Oh right, free labor, I forget XP My job is pretty easy so far. I'm pretty much the tech gopher (aka coffee getter and errand runner) for the next week, then starting Saturday I'll be in charge of everything running smoothly backstage and the banhammer on any cast members who are late to rehearsals. Much better than labor work, but still intensely boring, at least right now. Although drama has already started between tech members, and people are ALREADY talking behind each others backs. Oh, theatre majors, so much drama.

Offtopic: The ending song for the final straight-to-DVD Tsubasa episodes (Go go March 17th!) reminds me of a mix between the Evangelion intro song and one of the Slayers intro songs, for some reason, wtf. And yet I can't stop listening to it and now I'm addicted to it. AAAAH. Can't wait for the first episode to be released.

You guys are not going to believe this. I got into another car accident.

I was waiting in the drivethrough pharmacy line at Walgreens. All of a sudden a car starts backing out of the lane. She had PLENTY of room. But the car in front of me apparently thought she didn't, so he put his HUGE ASS FORD EXPEDITION in reverse and slams on the gas. Right into my bumper. Rips off my license plate and leaves a huge ass dent in my bumper. His excuse? "I didn't see you." WOW.

So, you know what that means! More dealing with insurance companies, even though I haven't even settled the case with the last person that hit me! And time to go leave my car at the body shop for another month! How fucking fabulous! I really can't believe this.

Universe, please stop. Just, stop. I'm done with all of this bad luck, I really am. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I'm reaching my breaking point now. Please, stop.

I feel like I've been beaten up.

I honestly cannot sit in a desk for 3 hours anymore, it's physically impossible. My lower back freezes up and hurts like crazy, my shoulders have been hurting just because I carried around a very light bag with barely anything in it yesterday. I can barely touch my shoulders they're so sore, wtf? My back was so stiff and painful and I could hardly sit there. And my butt felt like someone hit me with a yaoi paddle a thousand times, it was so sore. The poor person behind me must have been extremely distracted, because I couldn't stop moving since I was hurting so bad. At one point, I attempted to sit up as straight as possible, I feel a *POP* in my chest. My rib popped out of alignment, AND OMFG IT HURT. It still hurts. Feels like its tugging, and it hurts when I breathe in. Ugh.

I'm a physical mess. On top of all of this, my ankle still hurts when I walk on it. And my TMJ has become a serious issue. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this on here yet, but for the past 6 months I've had a popping jaw. Everytime I chew the left side of my jaw pops out then pops back in. It's not exactly fun. I was able to ignore it for awhile because it only happened occasionally, but now it pops every single time I open my mouth. And now it hurts every time it pops. Ugh. I'm not sure who to see about it, since my doctor won't care.

So! I can't walk well, can't sit in one place, can't chew anything, and it hurts to breathe. Such a fine existance I'm living these days, eh? I've never felt this physically incapable, and it sucks. Time to go lie down, meh.

For the first time in a long while.. I had a fantastic day. Nope, you didn't read that wrong! This is actually a happy post o.o Uwaa.

Today I ended up going to AOD because I'm sick and tired of being stressed out and I needed some relief that only an anime con can give. Woke up really early, and got to the con at 11. Stood in the registration line, and I feel someone staring at me from across the room. Turns out it's a not-unattractive Syaoran cosplayer, totally checking me out. Now, I've been joking with John ever since I told him I was going by myself, that I was going to find some hot Syaoran cosplayer to keep me company. So of course, it was ironic that as soon as I get to the con, there's a Syaoran, checking me out. Hahaha. I had a Tsubasa bag with me btw, which was probably why he was staring at me. Anywho, got my badge, and headed off to the dealer room. First thing I see: Packs of Clamp in Cardland cards. Hell yes. I buy 4 packs from the guy and all of a sudden he reaches in the box and says, "Here, I'll give this to you for free." It was the ultra rare promo card that you can only get if you buy an entire box of card packs. NICE. I thanked him so many times, that was so awesome for him to do. Walked around some more, and found a pretty crowded booth in the back. The woman there was amazing. She asked me what I was looking for, I told her CLAMP or Pokemon stuff, and she said she had tons from both of those series. Heck yes. She started showing me stuff in her display drawers, and I spotted a CCS Sakura figure. I mentioned it was really cute, and she said, "Here, just take it for free." The free gods were shining upon me. She also gave me a little pack of Pokemon stickers for free too, and a discount on the tons of stuff I bought from her. She had some insanely rare stuff that I got to snatch up, incredibly cheap. Got so lucky. I really hope I see her again, she was such a nice person. Walked around the dealer room some more, buying some more random stuff. I saw Syaoran cosplayer again, smiling at me from across the room. Ahaaaaa, he's everywhere! I headed out to the artists alley and found an artist that I met at Sac-Anime! We talked about Pokemon and random stuff for about 20 minutes, she gave me 2 fake roses since it was V-Day XD Haha. She's cool, she likes CCS and Pokemon, and she's fun to talk to ^^ After our random conversation of Shaymins and Kinko's, I walked to the next booth.. and the next booth.. and both of them had TSUBASA FANART. I usually can never find a single Tsubasa fanart at cons, you guys, this is exciting for the geek in me. I found 2 gorgeous pieces of art and snatched them up XD

By now I'm being bogged down with bags, so I decided to drop off stuff at the car. When I was walking back up the stairs, who's standing there in the middle of a photoshoot... but flirty Syaoran cosplayer! He literally stopped his posing in the middle of a shoot to turn his entire body towards me to look and smile at me again. He looked like he was about to say something, but I chickened out and just smiled back and turned around the corner. I should've talked to him, agh! Having a Tsubasa loving friend would be awesome, but damn, I just chicken out for some reason. I headed over to the main panel room to see some panels. Saw a panel about Writing for Animation which was pretty interesting, then a panel about Acting and Directing in Animation which was even more interesting. It was run by Richard Epcar and his wife, he does some really great voices. They said that in order to be an anime voice actor you must have taken regular acting classes. So maybe I'll end up being a voice actor to use this theatre major of mine, haha. It was a good panel. After that I had a break, so I headed over to Mel's for some food. Eating at the counter alone on Valentines day is not a fun experience, you guys. On my right: lonely old guy. On my left: lonely old guy. Ugh. The waitress was extremely nice however, which made it a pleasant lunch. After eating I went back to the con, and headed to the panel I was really excited about: Johnny Yong Bosch. He's mostly well known for being the green ranger in old school Power Rangers (raaaaandom), the english voice of Ichigo in Bleach, and some dude in Devil May Cry. But I mostly know him for his voicework in Persona 4 as the main character and Adachi XD And of course, Guy in Tales of the Abyss. He's done a ton of stuff. His panel was really entertaining (especially his horror stories of the Haruhi dance, lol), and it went by really quickly. He was doing autographs right afterwards in a different room. I brought my Persona 4 artbook for just this occasion.. so I waited.. for 45 minutes. And the line had barely moved @_@ My god, the Bleach fangirls and their 10 Bleach manga that they needed him to sign took FOREVER. There was another panel I really wanted to go to that started soon, so I just ditched the line, never got my artbook signed. Went to the dealer room for some final purchases before it closed, then went to find the panel I wanted to go to... and I discovered that the panel was in the same room that Johnny Yong Bosch was signing things in, and it would be delayed until everyone got an autograph. Meaning, I could have gotten my artbook signed without missing the panel. AGGGH. Oh well, that was the one bad thing that happened today.

The panel I wanted to go to was called the Anime Industry Panel. I'm really interested in seeing if I can find SOME kind of job in the anime industry, because why not have fun in a job for awhile, right? I walk in, and... there's 2 guys sitting there. I sat down. All of a sudden the guy running the panel says, "Welcome! You're the only person that showed up, these 2 guys are volunteers so they have to be here. So this is your panel!" Oh, snap. So yep, it was basically a 2 hour panel of the 4 of us talking. XD LOL. He went into a lot of stuff about storytelling and drawing, not exactly the industry panel I thought it would be, but it was fun talking about things from crossdressing dads on the street, to Evangelion, to hentai. WTF. lol. After the panel, the 2 volunteer guys walk out with me. They follow me to the masquerade room (which was over, they were doing a gameshow), and we had a few awkward moments together... and then, as if our social link level went up 8 levels in 2 minutes (Persona reference! lol), we all just instantly clicked as friends. We were laughing and nudging each other, telling random jokes, and playing hacky sack with one of the guy's cell phones because his girlfriend is a weirdo that texts him every 3 seconds because she's paranoid he's cheating. And she sends him Simpsons porn text messages. CREEPY AND WTF. lol. Hacky sack with a cell phone was surprisingly fun XD And his cell still worked! lol. After the cosplayers got their awards, we watched AnimeMyu, a rather older woman who cosplays as Sailor Moon and sings Sailor Moon songs. She had people come up to do the Haruhi dance, and my newfound friend said, "I KNOW HOW TO DO IT!" and he tried to get me to go up onstage with him. I have no idea how to do the Haruhi dance, or I would've gone up with him. Hahaha. We all watched another band while randomly dancing in our seats, and by then it was late so they decided to walk me to my car. Unfortunately, they live near LA (WHYYYY), and I found out they dont even have a hotel room and they're going to sleep in their car. Bummer >_< On the way to my car we talked of Ninjas of the Night and The Internet is for Porn. I think there were shocked that I actually knew about every random thing that they talked about, hahaha. I love anime cons, I really do. I found out one of them is going to sing in the karaoke contest tomorrow, and he said it was going to be hilarious. They begged me to come back to hang out tomorrow, but.. I just don't think I can afford another day. Plus, it's 6:30am and I'm still not asleep. Haha. I wish I could hang out with them though, really. Laughing that much.. what a great feeling. I finally make some anime friends, and then they live far away -.- Damn. lol.

All in all, it was an extremely awesome con. I was a little bit worried about going by myself, but I was never bored, and I noticed a ton of people go by themselves. Besides, I had plenty of people to talk to, and even made some new social links XD I'm so glad I went.

Oh yeah, and John's team got 3rd place in the National BIM competition :) Major congrats to you Johnoes san~!

John is napping again, so its post time XD

We're still in Chico, we decided to stay until next week, wooo. The last day of Sac Anime was fun, did lots more shopping and.. that was about it. lol. I'm sad that I didn't have the courage to go up to some of the Tsubasa cosplayers and ask to take a pic, there were some really great cosplayers there. And lots of them! Very cool. I took some pics of cosplayers during the "cosplay fashion show", but I didn't bring my camera link so I cant upload them. We've been in Chico the past few days, we've been lounging around not doing much. Best way to spend vacation, hehe. Been playing a lot of FFXI too, which is always nice. We're having so much fun playing house and being alone ^_^

We've been waiting rather unpatiently for the latest Tsubasa chapter to get scanned (and refreshing the LJ page pretty much every hour since yesterday waiting for it gaaaah), we found some translations of the chapter without pictures. John opened up a Spanish translation, and hilarities ensued:

John: NOOOO I don't want to be spoiled *shields eyes*
Me: o.o But, its a translation in Spanish!
John: Oh.. *laughs*
*We dont know any Spanish at all, but somehow this happened*
Me: Yo quiero Syaoran?
John: Yo quiero Syaoran pantalones!
Me: ............ you want Syaoran's pants?
John: .... Oh thats what that means...

Hahahaha XD!

Fangirl time: TSUBASA CHAPTER 209 YESSS. It is so, so good. Ahhhhhh ♥ CLAMP, thank you. No no, I'm not just thanking you for the wonderfully sexy pic of Syaoran being soaking wet on the splash page, but also for the contents of the chapter itself. Oh, cloney, I knew it all along ♥ And I have been fangirling all night. No wonder John is so tired, lol.

Hmm, I know there was more I wanted to write about, but I'm drawing a blank, agh. Aw well, I'll save it for next time XD

Posting from Sac Anime! John's asleep, I'm hyped up on caffeine and internet is free, so why not post! Sac Anime has been fun.. well to be honest, we've barely been at the con. Friday we woke up early got all ready.. and then got majorely sidetracked at 99 Ranch Market D: We were supposed to stop quick just to pick up some snackage, but we ended up spending a lot of time there. Damn you anime store with 8000000 beautiful things to stare at. Then there was a ton of traffic driving up here, blargh. Didn't get to the con till 5:30, thankfully we were able to get our badges before they closed up registration at 6. This con is CROWDED. Seems more crowded than it was in August. You have to push through oceans of people to get anywhere. There wasn't much to do so we did a run through of the dealer room before they closed, then got our hotel room. We were greeted by our neighbors as soon as we got up the stairs, who gave us a lovely message:

"I hope you don't want any sleep tonight, because these two kids scream all night long."
*one of the kids starts making random yelling noises for no reason*

The one thing you DO NOT want to hear while staying at a hotel trying to relax. Oh god. Luckily, the walls must be thick because we only heard the screaming kids when they were leaving this morning. Then when we walked in we thought the air conditioning was broken, it was stifling hot. Had the engineer come in and he told us that it's not broken, you just need to program it at a certain temperature for every time of day, you can't just change the temp whenever you want. WORST AC SYSTEM EVER. Other than that, the hotel is cool. Still loving the fridge and the stove. I can't express how many resturaunts they have in this particular part of Sacramento. Seriously, if you want ANYTHING, it is within a one mile radius. They have everything from Del Taco to Buca de Beppo to TGI Fridays to Fresh Choice. If you can think of a chain resturaunt, it will be within these 5 blocks. It's incredible. lol. Despite all these fine choices, we went and got Arbys because I've never actually had it before... they asked like 10 questions and it was weird because they kept pausing for ridiculous amounts of time. "What size chicken? *30 seconds pass*.. What size fries? *40 seconds pass* What size drink? *20 seconds pass* What kind of sauce? *2 minutes pass...*" That was so weird, John and I kept busting out laughing because of the ridiculous pauses, haha. Came back to the room and ate quickly (it uh.. wasn't as good as the commercials say), then headed back to the con to watch some bands! Saw the end of Akai Sky's set and the start of a band named Mid Night. Their intro was flashy and it got me all excited..... then they started screeching some creepy emo version of "Sweet Dreams Are Made of These." We left before the song ended. lol. No, just, no >____< Headed off to Safeway to get some food, then went back to the room.

Today was supposed to be a full day, but it didn't really turn out that way, lol. Surprisingly we woke up at 10... but we didn't actually leave this room until 2:30pm. Ehehe, got a little sidetracked XD Headed to the con and had some time before a panel started, so it was dealer room time. Got wayyyy too much stuff, as usual. The things I'm most excited about are a poster of the two Syaorans (♥), a cute little Shaymin plush keychain, a $2 Tsubasa necklace that is surprisingly well made, 4 official Tsubasa wallscrolls for less than the price of what 2 would cost normally (wallscroll seller was so awesome), a pokeball bell keychain.. and tons of other stuff, because I am a dealer room whore. lol. After whoring in the dealer room we headed over to a panel held by Lisa Furukawa.. it was a panel on learning basic Japanese through cute songs. She taught a "Chibi neko chan" song that has been stuck in my head since the panel XD And she made us do kitty ears while singing it. Hahaha, it was fun. After that we decided to wait in line for the masquerade, even though we knew full well that it would probably suck as much as last year. Waited for 45 minutes, then finally let us in.. and we were ONE SEAT AWAY FROM SITTING DOWN. Omfg. They have an extremely limited amount of seats, and if you don't get a seat you have to stand with the sweaty crowds in the back for the entire show. There were these really rude girls that were "holding a seat for a friend". If they weren't holding that seat then we could've sat down. We were fed up from standing and annoyed with the girls so we swam through the ridiculous crowds coming in and just left the con. Headed off to a great dinner at a resturaunt called California Cafe, they have such good food. Walked around the big mall around here because nothing else was going on at the con till the rave started at 9. Got back to the hotel room at 8, John's eye has been bothering him all weekend and it keeps swelling up randomly, and it was bothering him again so he decided to take a nap.. and we never made it to the rave, he's still sleeping. lol. I baked some cookies randomly, and drank Dr Pepper, so I'm a little hyped up o_o

Haven't been spending much time at the con, but that's alright. It's a small con with not too much to do anyway. Tomorrow we're going to spend more quality time at the con, then its off to Chico for a few more days of alone time because we need it!

Oh yeah, totally off topic, but grades came in.. not great, but not bad either.

Archeology of the Far East: B-
Culture of Japan: B+
Gandhi: B+
Acting 2: B

At least the semesters over. I totally have college senioritis, lol.

Apple soda is so, so yum. Mmm.

Good thing I didn't post a huge rant about my grade yesterday, turns out it really was a mistake. My Culture of Japan class grade was listed as a C+ last night, and I was pissed. That was the one class I knew I did well in, aced all the quizzes, got an A- on the midterm, read all fricking 12 books by the due dates. There was no way all that work was worth just a C+. So I e-mailed my professor, and thank god he e-mailed back saying it was a mistake, he messed up when he inputted my grade and I really got a B+. That's more like it, dude. But now I have to deal with filling out a form, meeting with him on campus to get a signature, then bringing forms to the office because I have to officially dispute the grade even though he admits it was his fault. @.@ Bit of a hassle, but at least he realized his mistake and isn't being stubborn about it. And yay, B+! lol. Grades are technically due today, but I'm still waiting for 2 other classes to be posted..

Very close to the end of Persona 4 (hey, no teasing me for taking me a long time to finish, I'm working on 10 games right now! XD), and still loving every minute of it ♥ Insomnia continues, time to play! XD